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Why We Remember Embarrassing Moments From 12 Years Ago While Trying to Sleep


Why your brain replays embarrassing memories at 2 a.m. like a personal horror film — and what science (and Southern logic) says about it. A hilarious, relatable blog by author A.L. Childers.




🌙 Why We Remember Embarrassing Moments From 12 Years Ago While Trying to Sleep

or as I call it: “My Brain Runs a Cringe Marathon While I’m Just Trying to Breathe.”

Last night, as I was settling into bed — you know, trying to relax, regulate my nervous system, maybe pretend I have my life together — my brain whispered:

“Hey… remember that time in 7th grade when you waved back at someone who wasn’t waving at you?”

Excuse me?
WHY ARE WE DOING THIS RIGHT NOW?

It’s 2:13 a.m.
I’m horizontal.
I have melatonin in my bloodstream.
This is a hostile attack.

But of course, my brain keeps going:

Remember that time—

  • you tripped in Walmart?
  • your stomach growled during a prayer?
  • you said “You too” to a waiter who told you to enjoy your meal?
  • you called your teacher “Mom”?
  • or that one time at church when you blessed the wrong baby?

WHY. NOW.


🧠 **Let’s break down the science.

(Yes, science — but we’re doing it the A.L. Childers way.)**

There are actual psychological explanations for this:

⭐ 1. Your brain thinks embarrassment = danger

The amygdala (the little anxiety gremlin in your brain) doesn’t know the difference between:

  • “I almost got eaten by a bear”
    and
  • “I pronounced ‘acai’ wrong in public.”

To your brain?
Same thing.

Protection mode activated.

⭐ 2. You finally slowed down… so your brain finally speeds up

All day, you’re busy.
Work. Kids. Emails. Drama. Surviving America.

But once you lie down?

Your brain goes:

“Ah yes… time to revisit every social mistake since 2004.”

It’s like your mind waits until you’re vulnerable and can’t fight back.

⭐ 3. Your brain LOVES unresolved emotional files

Embarrassing moments are like open tabs on a computer you forgot to close.

When you try to sleep, your brain is like:

“Before we shut down… let’s run diagnostics on the most CRINGE thing you ever did.”

And like a loyal trauma archivist, it pulls receipts.


🤡 But here’s MY theory (Southern Science™):

Embarrassing memories return at night because:

  • ghosts are bored
  • our ancestors need entertainment
  • the universe is humbling us
  • our brains are run by petty interns
  • or God is running reruns for fun

Because truly, some of these memories pop up like:

“Hi, it’s me.
From 15 years ago.
Remember when you said ‘You too’ to the Uber driver who told you to have a safe trip?”

NO I DO NOT AND I DO NOT CLAIM THAT VERSION OF ME.


🎬 **A Cinematic Reenactment:

Your brain at 2 a.m.**

Interior. Bedroom. Moonlight. Soft breathing.

Your brain:
“Roll the tape.”

You:
“NO.”

Your brain:
“But it’s the part where you asked a pregnant woman when she was due… and she wasn’t pregnant.”

You:
“DELETE IT.”

Your brain:
“We can’t. It’s in 4K.”


🧩 Eyewitness Testimonies (Absolutely Real, Do Not Question Them)

Tiffany, age 32:
“My brain showed me a memory from 2008 so vividly I had to apologize out loud. To no one.”

Marcus, age 40:
“I remembered a moment so embarrassing I sat up and turned on the light and said ‘NOT TODAY.’”

Anonymous Southern Woman:
“I remembered a church memory so bad I had to rebuke it.”

Same, ma’am. Same.


⚠️ Disclaimer (Because Some of Y’all Need Calmness & Clarity)

This blog is:

  • humor
  • truth
  • trauma-adjacent comedy
  • psychologically informed
  • spiritually accurate (in the Southern sense)
  • legally safe
  • and meant to remind you
    that EVERYONE relives cringe at night.

You’re human.
Your brain is dramatic.
That’s all.


🖊️ About the Author

I’m A.L. Childers — storyteller, overthinker, Carolina-raised human disaster, and multi-genre author of more than 200 books ranging from dark history to empowerment to humor to corruption exposés.

If there is a strange, unexplainable, emotionally-charged human experience…
I will write it.

I peel back the layers of the mind, society, and the world with a mix of:

  • humor
  • honesty
  • archival research
  • and Southern “I’ve seen some stuff” energy

If you’ve ever laughed at your own pain…
overthought your entire life at 1 a.m.…
or apologized to yourself for something you did in 2009…

Welcome to my people.


📚 References & Resources

(Real science + sprinkled humor)

• Dr. Robyn Bluhm — The Psychology of Embarrassment
• UC Berkeley Sleep Lab — Why intrusive thoughts spike at bedtime
• National Institute of Mental Health — Amygdala responses to social threat
• “Intrusive Memories & Overthinking,” Journal of Cognitive Neuroscience
• My own brain, which will not shut up
• The ghosts who whisper “remember that time?”

🌌 Principles and Symbols: A Guide to Eternal Wisdom in a Modern World

Why This Book Was Written

Humanity has always searched for meaning. From cave paintings to digital icons, from myths of creation to modern physics, we have asked the same questions: Who are we? What endures? Where is truth to be found?

In 1871, Albert Pike attempted to answer these questions with Morals and Dogma, a massive compendium of philosophy, symbolism, and esoteric tradition. But Pike wrote for a closed circle of Freemasons, in dense 19th-century language, with little attention to the voices outside his cultural frame.

In 2025, the questions remain — but the answers must be reframed. Principles and Symbols: A Guide to Eternal Wisdom in a Modern World was born out of this need: to take the timeless truths Pike sought, but reinterpret them for all seekers today, in a voice that is clear, inclusive, and global.

Principles and Symbols: A Guide to Eternal Wisdom in a Modern World


What You Will Find in This Book

This is not a manual of dogma. It is a living companion for seekers, skeptics, dreamers, and thinkers who feel the urgency of principle and the power of symbol in a world of chaos.

Inside these pages, readers will explore:

  • The search for meaning and why humans have always needed higher truths.
  • The language of symbols, from ancient glyphs to digital memes.
  • Principles that endure across empires, Indigenous traditions, civil rights movements, and spiritual teachings.
  • The mirror of myths, from Zeus to Star Wars, showing how stories shape reality.
  • The union of science and spirituality, and the mysteries reimagined in quantum physics, neuroscience, and cosmology.
  • The moral challenges of technology and AI — algorithms, deepfakes, and digital immortality.
  • The recognition of Earth as sacred temple, drawing from Indigenous cosmologies and climate science.
  • The exploration of time, death, and what lies beyond, blending ancient visions with near-death research.
  • The human journey through identity, power, community, and virtue in times of collapse.
  • The wisdom of the ages: mystics, sages, and symbols of transformation.
  • A vision of new humanity, guided by digital morality, global solidarity, evolving consciousness, and the eternal compass and flame.

This book is both reflection and action, offering not only insight but a call to live differently.


Introduction

“This is not a book to be rushed through. It is not a novel to be read once and set aside. Each part is a path. Each chapter is an initiation.

Read slowly. Pause with the symbols. Return when the world feels dark, or when you feel lost. The compass is here. The flame is here. But they will mean nothing if they are not lit within you.

As Albert Pike intended Morals and Dogma to be a lifelong companion for Masons, this book is offered as a companion for all seekers in 2025 and beyond.”


Notes on Sources

The references in this book draw from philosophy, religion, mysticism, Indigenous traditions, psychology, neuroscience, and modern science. They are not included to dictate truth, but to weave a conversation.

Like Pike, who built on Plato, the Bible, and the Vedas, this book builds on his foundation — but extends it. It includes voices he ignored: women mystics, Indigenous teachers, contemporary scientists, and modern prophets of justice.

This is not a commentary on Pike. It is a reinterpretation for our age: one where digital illusions, global crises, and the evolution of consciousness demand we hear old truths anew.


Final Words from the Author

“This is not Pike’s book rewritten. It is Pike’s dream reimagined. Where he wrote for a closed circle, this book speaks to the open world. Where he leaned on classical Europe, this book speaks with voices global and inclusive.

The seeker who reads these pages is invited not only to learn, but to live — to embody principles, to carry symbols, to walk with compass and flame.

For wisdom has always been this: not relic, but renewal. Not inheritance, but responsibility. Not light on a shelf, but flame in the hand.”


Epilogue

“For truth is not a possession. It is a flame. Fragile when untended, yet stronger than any darkness.

And principle is not a prison. It is a compass. A reminder that amid chaos, there is direction.

So step forward, compass steady, flame in hand. The path does not end. It begins again — with you.”


About the Author

A.L. Childers is a writer and seeker who bridges ancient wisdom with modern truths. Known for making complex ideas accessible, Childers invites readers to find meaning, principle, and light in a world of chaos.


Disclaimer

This book is not a religious text, nor an official commentary on Freemasonry or Pike’s work. It is a creative and scholarly reinterpretation of timeless principles and symbols for our modern age. All interpretations are the author’s own, with full respect given to the traditions and sources referenced.


Why You Should Read This Book

Because the questions of meaning, truth, and principle are not optional — they are essential. Because we live in an age where symbols are hijacked, truth is distorted, and morality is blurred by technology and power. Because without a compass, we are lost; without a flame, we are blind.

This book is not the end of your search, but a beginning. It is an invitation to live as if principles still matter and symbols still speak.

👉 Principles and Symbols: A Guide to Eternal Wisdom in a Modern World is available now on Amazon in paperback.